Finally some good news!

After a week home with the little roo for spring break we had a busy day on Monday. Monday the little one went back to school and we headed up to the VA for a CT scan for Josh. After the tests we came home for a bit and picked up malie from school early and back up to the VA for a doctor's appointment where we found out that he is in remission!!! Great news and we feel relieved! But there is a voice in the back of my head that feels like what if they didn't take enough time to look, or maybe I would feel better if I saw it myself. Even though I am not a trained professional but I think it would make me feel better. Josh's doctor at the VA is sending an email to our second opinion doc. Dr. Voss from UNMC to let her know the results and see how often she thinks he should have a check up or scans. It if wasn't for the VA paying for all of this I have no idea how we would have survived financially through all of this. I don't know how people do it! We have been very lucky in that aspect.

After our good news we had Kindergarten round up! Can't believe my little girl is going to kindergarten next year. We didn't stay for the parent meeting though and we went and got a pizza with my sis in law and brought it home and celebrated! My sister in law seemed like the perfect person to be there with us that night, she came to a lot of the treatments and was a big support for Josh. He loves his sissy! His dad was at a lot of treatments too, as many as he could be! Just want to say thanks to all that have supported us and given us good thoughts and prayers. I know that I put a blog on here about support and yes that is how I felt and still do, but you feel like your a lone sometimes when your going through it no matter how much support you have. So for now we have good news, let's hope it stays that way!!!

Is one going to be enough?

After we had Malie, Josh and I as a couple decided that one was good and we were happy with just the one little love fart that we have. I have felt that way for a few years now and still do pretty much. There have been plenty of people letting us know that we will change our minds and have more, but will we really ever? The answer is yes and no for me. Josh is a big no! I can't help that when I see a prego belly or a new baby that I feel that I would love to have another one. That I could go through everything all over again and Malie could be a big sister. Which by the way she would be great, I can already picture her touching my big ole belly. Which is why I am torn. Part of me wants that for her and us, but than again I do love the way our life is now. Life is easier as a family of three. If you include our puppers it's four. I like the thought of only having to provide for one and giving my best to one and not split my time and wish I had more time with each child. But I would if it happened! With cancer being a part of our life it is another thing to think about too. So for now I do think one is enough. I like that she is my little buddy and I hope that I can keep it that way, she gets my time and I like that we can read as many books as we want and do what we want, within reason. I know that she gets more than say a child would if they had siblings but I don't see her as a spoiled child. We say no a lot and try to teach her that you have to earn the fun/nice things. You don't just get them for acting like a butthead! I recently read an article about only children or siblings and they posed a great question " Would you be happier?" So simple but my answer is I don't think so, I am happy now. Would I be happy if another child were in the picture too, of course, but I don't need the excuse of it making me happier to have another. I am hoping though to get another puppy though!

Doing a happy dance!

Tomorrow is the final treatment and lets all hope it is the final one of his life!!!! The past week or so I was afraid and feeling a lot from all of this, but I am feeling better now and I am excited for tomorrow to be the last one. Things around here have been going pretty good, nothing to fully complain about. I am still focusing on spending time with people that are important to me so I went to lunch with two of my best friends, one with Erin and the super cute baby Beckett and than yesterday I went to lunch with Stephanie. And since I can't just go spend time with Ashley we have resorted to the usually phone/text conversation. I have been helping my sister in law with the table decorations for her wedding reception in July and working when I can. With the nice weather that has been showing it's face around here everyone once in a while we have been able to get some fresh air. I am ready for spring and to be able to put this camera to even more use soon. So below are some pictures from the past week. Hope you enjoy!!

Josh playing his guitar

 Table decoration for Brittney's wedding.

Malie's "tree's" she planted. lol.

" I believe that the very purpose of our life is to seek happiness. That is clear. Whether one believes in religion or not, whether one believes in this religion or that religion, we all are seeking something better in life. So, I think, the very motion of our life is towards happiness."

- The Dalai Lama from The Essence of Happiness