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Not too much going on in our lives at the moment. Just the same old same old. Been busy working, then coming home and cleaning and cooking and lets not forget to mention spending some time with my little family too! I was looking at some old pictures earlier this week and there was this one of Malie and I when she was little and I realized that I have forgotten just how much of a fun mom I used to be. I need to be more fun again! But why does it feel so hard to just get in there and play barbies or cars. I feel as if I have no imagination, but I want to and I want to do better. She only gets one childhood and she is an only child so I need to make sure that I can get in there and play how she plays sometimes too. Oh she did do something pretty cool tonight she tied her own shoes after I only showed her twice how to do it. Pretty proud of it!

I don't think I really have much else to talk about so I guess I'll give you a few pictures!

 Batgirl at her first Kindergarten Halloween party!

 Batgirl and her sidekicks, bat dog and puppy le pew!

Malie playing with Tremonti outside, the are the best of buds!

I Suck!

I officially suck at blogging. I haven't posted anything lately because I have not had the energy lately or really thought that anything I had to say was worth reading. But today we got some good news! Josh had a CT scan last week and all week both of us were nervous and trying not to think about. I couldn't stop thinking about what would happen if it was back. The first time when he finished with Radiation and life went back to usual we didn't get a chance to feel this way because he found the lump and we already knew that it was back. This time was a little scary waiting to find out. But all is well and it is needed. We really needed it to come out negative, I tried to prepare myself for bad news. Which is probably why I almost cried at work today because I stuffed everything down and than one little thing felt like I just wasn't measuring up. But all is well and maybe I should just let myself cry sometimes. I haven't really had too much energy lately to be creative. I am in limbo of getting a full blown sinus infection thanks to the Nebraska weather! I love this time of year though, so some inspiration is coming back to take some pretty pictures. Next weekend were gonna go to my mommas house in the country and hopefully I can get some great pictures! I am excited for Fall and Halloween, and scary movies! I have a bunch of small brown paper lunch sacks that I want to do something with but I need to find some inspiration for those. So I created an Pinterest account for some idea's. So if anyone has any let me know! Well enough for now, hopefully I can keep up with this better than I have!

Love,
Jaimers :)

My baby is a Kindergartner!!

Today Malie had her first day of Kindergarten, after a week of telling me she wasn't too excited and that she just wanted to stay home with me, she met her teacher and than it was goodbye mom and hello school. She had been so excited the past few nights to start school and today I wondered if either of us would cry. I knew that if she did I would, but she acted like it was just another day! She walked in and sat down and started coloring with all of the other kids. So Josh and I decided not to stay too long before the tables turned and we were a hot mess. It is just crazy to me that we are at this point already. I am back to working full time and I really like it and Malie is in school, real school, and it is going to go soooo fast from here on out. When I think about her getting older it makes my tummy hurt. I do get excited for her to mature a little but I also want my little baby back too.

One thing that has helped with the anxiety of her growing up is work. I am really liking being back at work, more than I thought I would. We don't get any kiddos in our room yet for a little bit so we have just been getting things ready, but it will be fun to get to know the kids. Oh and I have been pretty proud of myself too because I have been keeping up with house work!

This last weekend the hubby and I got to spend some time together and went to the Alterbridge concert to see one of our favorite bands and Josh's idol for guitar. I got some good pictures and I wish I was in a better spot to get even better ones. Maybe one day I could actually become a photographer, but for now I will keep it as a hobby, but I am really happy and in my own element when I am taking pictures. It's weird because I feel like it just crept up on me too. Maybe that's just the way it goes. But I better get to bed because I have work in the morning!!! Time to play some Majohng till I get too tired to keep my eye's open. Good night!!

Going back to work!

I had an interview a few weeks ago to go from being a sub to a full time para and I got the job and I will be working at Malie's old school, at the preschool. I am excited to bring in some extra money!! This means I will be taking another break from school again, but I would rather get us caught up on bills and even ahead. So since I start work soon and Malie starts school again soon we are trying to spend some more time together so we went to Lauritzen Gardens the other day so I could take some pictures and she could see the trains. Brittney and I put together her cop car so she could drive around in it. She does really good, it's funny to see her driving like adults do. She likes to park it and than back it up and turn around. Tremonti loves to follow her in it and he barks at it too. The weather has been so beautiful the past few days we haven't even had the air on, saving money!! So below are some pictures that I took from our day at the gardens. I let Malie run through one of their sprinklers that day so a couple of the pictures her shirt is wet. Hope you enjoy!

Butterflies and dragonflies

Photography and more

Okay so this blog may become more about photography and the pictures I take than talking about things, just because I seem to make more time to do stuff with pictures than I do with talking about what is going on in our lives. But this will still be a place to vent sometimes. So before I put up some pictures I'll talk about what I have been feeling lately. The funeral for my grandpa went as well as it could, it was hard. And when I look at a picture of him the way I remember him it makes my heart sting a bit. It was really nice seeing my family, I love and miss them so much. My cousin is going into Digital Photography and we were going to go take some pictures together but we ran out of time. So I am looking forward to doing that with her the next time we go up there! Other than that we have been just getting back to normal at home. There have been a few things I have been trying to work on and that is spending more time just playing with Malie and so far it has been good. I dedicate at least one hour to spending time with her doing what she wants to do ( within reason). She has been getting more than an hour for sure lately so its been great.

The other thing that I have been working on is being paranoid that the Cancer will come back. Anytime my hubby itches or sweats in the night the thought comes to my mind. And during my grandpa's funeral it was something that both of us could not take off our minds. I always feel like it is just around the corner waiting to pop up again. So I guess you just enjoy the time that you have because you never know if it will come back again. I sure hope not!!! But its there in the back of both our minds.

So onto some pictures that I have taken. Hope you enjoy, because I do!

It happend

I have been lucky in life to not really lose to many people in my family. But this past weekend what we knew would happen eventually did. My grandpa passed away on the last day of our family reunion. The day that everyone usually heads back home to their life's. He wanted to make it to the reunion to see the family and I am a little hurt that we could not be there. My sister in law had her wedding reception that we were happy to be a part of. He passed in his sleep early Sunday morning, he had been battling COPD for many years now and we all new that this day would come and I guess if it was going to happen it happened the best way it could have, surrounded by our family. I just wish I could have been there too. It is somewhat easy for me to be a bit detached right now, because I am not there with my family yet. They are all up in Minnesota right now and we are leaving in a couple days to be with them and say our goodbyes. I know when I see my mom that is going to be the hardest part. I melt like a little 5yr old girl in front of her. She cries I cry. We have always been close except for a few years. The past few days I have felt really tired and just want some quiet time, so I have found it hard to really be motivated to do anything, which makes me feel worse because I know malie wants to go do things and I just don't feel like it and I have barely any patience when I usually have a ton. It's probably normal I guess. So this is what is going on right now, just gonna get through this weekend which will be really hard, but I am looking forward to seeing my family.

My grandpa and Malie at last years family reunion.

Malie turned 5!

On Thursday my little roo turned 5 years old and soon she will be going to kindergarten and time is going to fly by, not that it already doesn't. We had a really great day on her birthday, one of the best. My dad took the day off and because we were going to dinner that night Josh had to go to sleep during the day so he could get up and go to dinner with us and than he had to go to work. So that day my dad came down for a breakfast with Malie of strawberry pancakes with cool whip, yummy! We opened presents and than we got ready to go down to Morrel Hall in Lincoln to see dinosaur bones! Malie's aunt Brittney came with us and on the way down we stopped at Red Lobster, one of Malie's favorite places to eat. My dad and I both don't like seafood so we went with some very yummy chicken, but Malie ate her shrimp in like 2 min! and than wanted more! So after lunch off we went to the museum.

Malie looks so small. Even a picture doesn't show how massive a mammoth was. Crazy! But after our trip to lincoln we had to head back and wake up josh to go to dinner at the Spaghetti Works in Ralston. Dinner was pretty good as you can see Malie got some ice cream for her birthday :)



Then on the way home we stopped down at the end of Mainstreet to see flooding from the Missouri River.

So we have been having a great summer so far. My sister in law leaves tomorrow to go to Jamaica and get married, I wish we could have gone too. But we are gonna send our love with them and we'll see them when they get back. So happy day to everyone! Hope you have a good week!