Photography and more

Okay so this blog may become more about photography and the pictures I take than talking about things, just because I seem to make more time to do stuff with pictures than I do with talking about what is going on in our lives. But this will still be a place to vent sometimes. So before I put up some pictures I'll talk about what I have been feeling lately. The funeral for my grandpa went as well as it could, it was hard. And when I look at a picture of him the way I remember him it makes my heart sting a bit. It was really nice seeing my family, I love and miss them so much. My cousin is going into Digital Photography and we were going to go take some pictures together but we ran out of time. So I am looking forward to doing that with her the next time we go up there! Other than that we have been just getting back to normal at home. There have been a few things I have been trying to work on and that is spending more time just playing with Malie and so far it has been good. I dedicate at least one hour to spending time with her doing what she wants to do ( within reason). She has been getting more than an hour for sure lately so its been great.

The other thing that I have been working on is being paranoid that the Cancer will come back. Anytime my hubby itches or sweats in the night the thought comes to my mind. And during my grandpa's funeral it was something that both of us could not take off our minds. I always feel like it is just around the corner waiting to pop up again. So I guess you just enjoy the time that you have because you never know if it will come back again. I sure hope not!!! But its there in the back of both our minds.

So onto some pictures that I have taken. Hope you enjoy, because I do!

It happend

I have been lucky in life to not really lose to many people in my family. But this past weekend what we knew would happen eventually did. My grandpa passed away on the last day of our family reunion. The day that everyone usually heads back home to their life's. He wanted to make it to the reunion to see the family and I am a little hurt that we could not be there. My sister in law had her wedding reception that we were happy to be a part of. He passed in his sleep early Sunday morning, he had been battling COPD for many years now and we all new that this day would come and I guess if it was going to happen it happened the best way it could have, surrounded by our family. I just wish I could have been there too. It is somewhat easy for me to be a bit detached right now, because I am not there with my family yet. They are all up in Minnesota right now and we are leaving in a couple days to be with them and say our goodbyes. I know when I see my mom that is going to be the hardest part. I melt like a little 5yr old girl in front of her. She cries I cry. We have always been close except for a few years. The past few days I have felt really tired and just want some quiet time, so I have found it hard to really be motivated to do anything, which makes me feel worse because I know malie wants to go do things and I just don't feel like it and I have barely any patience when I usually have a ton. It's probably normal I guess. So this is what is going on right now, just gonna get through this weekend which will be really hard, but I am looking forward to seeing my family.

My grandpa and Malie at last years family reunion.