It happend

I have been lucky in life to not really lose to many people in my family. But this past weekend what we knew would happen eventually did. My grandpa passed away on the last day of our family reunion. The day that everyone usually heads back home to their life's. He wanted to make it to the reunion to see the family and I am a little hurt that we could not be there. My sister in law had her wedding reception that we were happy to be a part of. He passed in his sleep early Sunday morning, he had been battling COPD for many years now and we all new that this day would come and I guess if it was going to happen it happened the best way it could have, surrounded by our family. I just wish I could have been there too. It is somewhat easy for me to be a bit detached right now, because I am not there with my family yet. They are all up in Minnesota right now and we are leaving in a couple days to be with them and say our goodbyes. I know when I see my mom that is going to be the hardest part. I melt like a little 5yr old girl in front of her. She cries I cry. We have always been close except for a few years. The past few days I have felt really tired and just want some quiet time, so I have found it hard to really be motivated to do anything, which makes me feel worse because I know malie wants to go do things and I just don't feel like it and I have barely any patience when I usually have a ton. It's probably normal I guess. So this is what is going on right now, just gonna get through this weekend which will be really hard, but I am looking forward to seeing my family.

My grandpa and Malie at last years family reunion.